I got up yesterday (Thursday) and looked at the astrology for the next two days — Mars (ego, energy) in the last degree of Virgo, Mars moving into the sign of his detriment, Libra, to make a conjunction with Saturn, the Aries Moon opposing Mars and emotionally triggering the Cardinal Climax….
And I said to myself, “I’m just going to expect the next two days to totally suck. And then any time I happen to be feeling good, it’ll be a huge bonus.”
I’m not sure what kind of spiritual practice that attitude fits into. I could do a little mental gymnastics and shoehorn it into Buddhism (“It’s all illusion, so don’t get attached to outcomes”) or Christianity (“Be careful for nothing…”). All I know is, it works. Letting go of attachments like:
needing to feel good
judging my self-worth by whether I meet all of my deadlines
needing my woman to feel good and have the energy to be kind to me
sure makes life easier when the astrology is running so contrary.
I’m not talking about taking my frustration out on innocent bystanders. That’s never really that cool. But if you ask me, pretending life is great when it sucks may be spiritual (escaping into some pre-sanctified idea of virtuous-ness and “light”) but it definitely isn’t soulful.
And let me tell you – I did feel like crap a lot this week. The baby’s been crying, the woman’s been feeling burdened and burnt-out, there are always a million things to do, I’ve just wanted to sleep fifteen hours a day…
But I also had some wonderful moments. And I feel like giving myself permission to not have to pretend things feel good when they don’t feel good enabled me to really enjoy the good-feeling moments for the shining little gems they are.
I got up yesterday (Thursday) and looked at the astrology for the next two days — Mars (ego, energy) in the last degree of Virgo, Mars moving into the sign of his detriment, Libra, to make a conjunction with Saturn, the Aries Moon opposing Mars and emotionally triggering the Cardinal Climax….
And I said to myself, “I’m just going to expect the next two days to totally suck. And then any time I happen to be feeling good, it’ll be a huge bonus.”
I’m not sure what kind of spiritual practice that attitude fits into. I could do a little mental gymnastics and shoehorn it into Buddhism (“It’s all illusion, so don’t get attached to outcomes”) or Christianity (“Be careful for nothing…”). All I know is, it works. Letting go of attachments like:
sure makes life easier when the astrology is running so contrary.
I’m not talking about taking my frustration out on innocent bystanders. That’s never really that cool. But if you ask me, pretending life is great when it sucks may be spiritual (escaping into some pre-sanctified idea of virtuous-ness and “light”) but it definitely isn’t soulful.
And let me tell you – I did feel like crap a lot this week. The baby’s been crying, the woman’s been feeling burdened and burnt-out, there are always a million things to do, I’ve just wanted to sleep fifteen hours a day…
But I also had some wonderful moments. And I feel like giving myself permission to not have to pretend things feel good when they don’t feel good enabled me to really enjoy the good-feeling moments for the shining little gems they are.